Thursday, May 29, 2008

The Great Wait

Ahhh, the great wait. We knew we would have one. We knew adoption was a process, but I don't think we ever imagined how tough it would be. The thing is we were originally told it could take 2-3 years for a girl from Thai Red Cross program and although thoroughly bummed about it, we were prepared to wait. Well, that was then and this is now. The truth is when we heard about a particular little girl that was waiting for a family everything changed for us. We have loved her (sight unseen) since the first day we heard about her (March 28th) some 2 months ago. In our hearts we know there was a reason we were told about her and she was meant to be ours. We waited a month to get more info on her and the day it came, she was already matched with a family. That call came in on April 28th. As you can imagine, we were deflated. We thought we had lost her. I was so sad I couldn't post about it. Now words would come.

Well, it turned out the family declined because they wanted an older child, so our agency rushed our dossier over. They agreed to review it...but that was a month ago. We asked the agency to let us see her file...just in case. We just have this feeling. Then 2 weeks ago we heard they would be reviewing our file at the next board meeting. They had a meeting this week, but we don't know if it was THE meeting they were referring to or if this could go on another few weeks. Or months. It's the hardest wait we have ever endured. It will be worth every second if they decide she is ours! We have now seen her picture. Her video. We stare at them several times a day. That is, ONLY several times a day if I can tear myself away from the computer! She's SO unbelievable beautiful, but it's not just her looks... it's more of a feeling I can't quite describe. There is something about her eyes. Like she is an old soul and someone I was destined to meet. I can't explain it really, but we feel so connected to her already! I can't even think that she may not be ours. It would be quite a blow.

Alright, that is enough of my even going there. If I'm in denial, then so be it, but she has got to be our daughter and that's that! They say good things come to those who wait and no news is good news. Okay, let's go with that! It's true that it would have only taken them a minute to say no, she's already with another family, right? We are praying with all our might that our good news is coming soon and we have to trust that everything will turn out okay. Thanks to all of you for your prayers and love and support! I have received so many nice emails from friends and family and we can't even tell you what that means to us.

For today...well, it's more busy work. Throwing myself into home and yard work. Maybe tomorrow will be the day we get news. The news that we finally have a child. A beautiful daughter.

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